how I got my period back after 5 yearsI have a confession to make..

I have not had my period for 5 years..

Yes, you read that right..I have not had my period for almost 5 whole years and I am 26 years old. As scary as that sounds.. to be honest, I thought it was pretty cool up until about 3 years ago after I got married and wanted to have babies and start a family with my husband.

This will be a long post so I apologize if I bore you with my story but I really want to share my story because after these last 2 years of Dr. appointments, cancer scares, tests and doing everything besides pumping my body full of estrogen pills, I learned that I am not alone on this and that 1,000’s if not more..other women are dealing with the same exact thing. This post is not a doctors recommendation nor am I claiming to have a cure or a magical remedy to what to do if you miss your period, but it is my story in its entirety in hopes that someone googles it and finds they too are not alone…

It all started in 2008 when I started regularly going to LA nightclubs and hanging out with the most beautiful people in the world (literally) that I started to look at myself differently. I knew I was not the “prettiest” most “gorgeous” or hottest thing in town, but I was pretty confident in my appearance. Boozing and drive thru fast food at 2 AM every night makes for a little pudge and like most 20 year olds I started to put on some weight.. I had slowly become bulimic and anorexic in high school but was never “hardcore” or down that black hole, like I became that year. Hanging out around the club scene in LA is a lot like high school..total “whose hot..whose not” etc. and of course you always want to be in the “in” crowd so you do what needs to be done to fit in. In my case I needed to lose some of that excess baggage I was carrying around. I knew I had to “eat” and wanted to be “normal” so I realized that bulimia was the way to go. I started to lose weight of course and started gaining more attention and getting more stares and looks so of course I continued..I also found out that most of my “friends” were doing the same thing so of course I got in even deeper and deeper until it became an addiction. My addiction was so bad there were days I could hardly move from my bed except to go to work for a few hours where I would knock back 2 or 3 red bulls and pick at some food..I was also vegan most likely as a way to control my food and have an excuse as to why I was not eating. I would just eat a few vegetables some days or would go on a binge roll at Trader Joe’s to then run to the nearest restroom to undo my :damage:. I of course lost my cycle, but knew in my head that if I wanted it back all I had to do was stop. I knew I was hurting myself but in my eyes being thin was all that mattered and if it took harming myself then so be it…

In 2010, I started working at a lounge as a bartender where I met my now husband who knew something was up with me. He started taking me to the gym and making me eat meat again because he knew that I was not eating meat because of my disorder not for ethical or religious reasons, he also knew that if I started lifting weights and working out while eating that I could have a hot body without harming myself. Long story short this is why I ended up becoming a trainer because I learned to love my body through nourishment and movement vs. junk food, binge eating and self harm and wanted to share this knowledge with other women. After a straight solid year of working out and lifting weights I continued with bulimia but only on occasion when food intake got out of hand. I went from an everyday binge cycle to maybe 1-2x a week after a dessert or treat. The last time I committed self harm was the day before my wedding which was May 4,2015 and I have not thought about harming myself since that very day.

My husband and I moved back to Los Angeles a few months after our wedding and now my “baby” mindset was turned up HIGH. I researched online and knew that after all that damage I did to myself I would have to give my body some time to readjust and heal before expecting it to carry a child. A year went by and nothing really happened so I started to do some research and found a doctor that specialized in people with my case. I went and spoke with her and she told me I needed to gain some more weight before we started to run any tests or spend money on nonsense. When I went in to see her I weighed about 90 lbs. In about 4 months time I gained a steady and healthy 6 lbs. [You can read how I did that here].

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We then moved to Bangkok where I gained a few about 7-8 lbs easily with the stress of the move and going out to eat and drink often. I started off by going to a Traditional Chinese Medicine doctor who spoke 0 English and only Chinese off the beaten path in Bangkok, where I was told through an iPad translator to drink this crazy herbal tea two times a day. He also pointed out to me I had a pituitary gland problem, a gut problem and a stress problem which all turned out to be my problems but I will get to that later. I drank this tea which made me feel like I was stoned everyday for about 3 months before giving up hope, stinking out my husband with my brewing tea which smelled like the most disgusting thing EVER and wanting to throw up every time I had to drink this tea which again was 2 TIMES A DAY! (read about my tea here)

It was as easy as eating almond butter by the spoonful daily..

Fifteen pounds heavier with a few months that went by I knew I needed another doctor’s opinion. I did mounds of blood work with a doctor who specializes in hormones and he told me my thyroid was hypo, and that doctors probably did not recognize this because someone with hypothyroidism usually has a weight problem no matter what they do. I had 0.25 estrogen where normal rate is about 18.0 and many other factors were out of whack. After 6 months of hormone therapy, which made me a crazy, depressed, pimply faced teenager all over again, I STILL had no period. I also took some time off of working out, cried daily and was in complete depression for NOTHING. I took a blood test about 6 months into the program with little change to my hormone levels. Several thousands of dollars later, I decided that this might not be the right path for me so I went to a private hospital to see an endoncronolgist who specializes in hormones.

I was scared out of my mind..what would my life be like if I had cancer..

This doctor told me that I all of this may be happening because I have cancer in my pituitary gland…I was horrified, scared, frightened and if you can imagine your entire life flashing in front of you in an instant this is like that and exactly what happened to me. I had to wait a week to get an MRI scan and let me tell you I woke up everyday that week with chills..I called everyone in my family and pretended to be normal but really I was calling them to keep myself calm. I went in for my scan where they injected me with this ink that left bruises all over my left hand and I can sometimes still feel where they placed the needle in my left hand randomly. I waited for several hours and the news returned that I was cancer free! I was SO happy but SO mad that this doctor just assumed the worst before looking at my other factors.

This entire time I kept on my thyroid medicine because before I started to take T3/T4 I would feel like someone hit me over the head with a brick every morning and felt like someone sucked the life out of me at 5 PM every single day no matter how many coffees I drank. The medicine made me feel normal so I continued on it.

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Then I went to another doctor which was recommended by a friend who also was having fertility troubles so I went and checked him out. He sat me down and gave me hope. He told me that I still have my eggs, I am young and it is still possible for me to get my cycle again, I just need to take some synthetic estrogen. I took this estrogen home, threw it under the TV and never looked at it again. I know a lot of women who have trouble take these pills and have success after many years of nothing else working and I have nothing against them at all! I knew I had another way and deep down inside I knew there had to be another more natural way.

Just a side not, my husband supported me the entire time and was my rock through this whole situation. It was just as hard on him as it was on me and I am so grateful that he stood by my side through every doctor appointment, every disappointment and every crying fit! (LOVE YOU BABE!)

I looked inside myself and knew there had to be another way..

After all of this I took a break and went back home to Southern California where I had some time to reflect, relax and connect with my family. I came back to Bangkok with a clear head and ready to take on another adventure. I started to work with an acupuncturist named Sandi (you can read about her here) who discovered that I had adrenal fatigue, was deficient in zinc and needed to put more emphasis on fats in my diet. I started to drink bone broth, eat walnuts and slow down a bit in the gym as well as adrenal support herbs and weekly acupuncture treatments. She also focused on healing my gut because after several years of harming my insides my stomach acids were all messed up and I was not absorbing as many nutrients from my food as I should. I also had to heal my leaky gut which I did by cutting out dried fruits, eating bone broth and chewing my food more before swallowing. She taught me to calm down and to focus on my health with healing foods and herbs. These treatments really helped me to understand my hormones and the importance of chilling out.

Things were becoming much more difficult for me to handle emotionally so my husband and I spoke of surrogacy as an option to having children. We did our research and even interviewed a company in Nepal, but learned we would have to move there and not be able to leave until the child obtained a US citizenship which could take 3-6 months. All of this was too much for us and with what happened in Nepal (pray for Nepal), and not to get all religious but I swear God always has a plan!

I took a look in the mirror and knew I had to get back to me and “re-find” myself again..

After a year and a half of 0 results, I needed to take a break and do something for myself so I went ahead and did a fitness competition. Acupuncture was working for me but at this point I had worn myself thin and needed to take on a new goal. I placed third in my division and was so proud of myself for competing and was happy that I got quick results from working hard that I knew if I truly focused on my goal of getting my cycle again I could get it all by myself without forcing synthetic hormones or loading my body with estrogen. I did not give up on myself!

My acupuncturist got pregnant herself and went back to her hometown of Australia and I was left again with some time to think about what I truly wanted in life. Both my husband and I were toying with the fact that having children may not be in our cards and we talked of getting to travel more and live around the world but deep down inside I knew we were both just saying these things to make light out of our situation.

I took on another fitness competition and while I did not place I saw it as another sign to take a step back and create some time to focus on myself again.

and then it happened…

I took all the information that my acupuncturist gave me plus some new tips my friend who is in school to become an Ayurvedic doctor gave me and started putting them all into use.

  • I started to eat brown rice, sweet potatoes and beets all heavy in carbohydrates which supports my thyroid and helps calm the adrenals
  • Give myself self massage every single night using sesame oil with lavender and other essential oils
  • Eating organic ghee, grass-fed organic butter and organic yoghurt with probiotics
  • Wake up every morning a bit earlier to journal, dry brush and say my gratitudes
  • Start everyday with warm foods like bone broth
  • Stop drinking so much coffee (I only drink 1 most days and 2 if I end up meeting a friend that day)
  • Take adrenal supporting herbs (read more about how I reduced my cortisol here)
  • Stop eating cruciferous vegetables, these vegetables fight off estrogen and do not support thyroid function
  • Listen to classical music while working
  • Dance more and let loose
  • Reverse Dieting, using IIFYM (not like an idiot who eats donuts and tilapia all day, but to make sure I was hitting my carbs, fats and proteins with whole foods)
  • Take yoga classes
  • Stop placing so much pressure on myself and comparing my accomplishments to others
  • Practice pranic breathing techniques

Again, I am not a doctor and am not saying to stop taking your medicine or do what I did but this is personally what worked for me. Practicing all of this for about 2 months I am now able to not take my thyroid pills and will find out how my blood work is in about 2 weeks but feel completely fine and now have my period! (Who would have thought that having a period would make someone SO happy)

I wanted to share my story with everyone and as difficult as it was for me to share this information on the internet I hope that it reaches the right people. I know some people may read this and look down on my expertise but because of this I enrolled myself last year in women’s hormone courses and just finished a sports nutrition course to learn even more. Yes, I know I am a fitness professional and I give advice and I never talked about my issue because I did not want people to know that I had this problem but right now I want to share because I know I am not the only one.

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Many fitness chicks that you see online sporting six pack abs and competing in competitions do not have there cycles..NO, not all of them, I personally know many fitness competitors who can get below 10% body fat and continue to have a cycle, but I was not one of those. I also learned that my body loves whole grain carbohydrates and that cutting them out for as long as I did was not a good thing for my body. I think with all the information out on the world wide web with dieting and such is helpful, I personally give it, but I think that if you put the body on a diet for too long you may suffer some consequences. I never really ate carbohydrates like brown rice and sweet potatoes only in very small quantities like less than 100 grams a day to now eating about 3-400 grams of carbohydrates a day. I think the combination of the above got my body back running and I am happy to be able to share my story!

If you have any questions or just need someone to talk to I am happy to talk to you, I know that finding someone to talk to is difficult! Also let me know if you like these posts..this was a hard one to click publish on..